Hind Khoudary
It is day 141 of this endless war on Gaza
I reached to a point where I feel that every [thing] I am doing is worthless and useless.
I am not sure if this is how I really feel or is just all the rage inside my heavy heart.
I remember when I was in primary school when I used to write my diaries every single day and hide my notebook.
I used to hide my notebook fearing anyone would read my diaries.
I used to write how I feel, what makes me happy, and what makes me sad.
Today, I am sharing what I feel with more than +1M people.
Sharing my feelings, my insecurities, my fears and thoughts.
My heart is very weak, sometimes I hear it beating so fast.
Every time they bomb my heart beats fast.
This bomb may kill someone I love, or someone else’s family.
I never wanted fame, I only want my home back.
I always felt lonely, maybe because I am a drama queen cancer -
but the nights and I never felt this lonely.
The sky and stars have been so beautiful in past couple of days, but it has been so cold.
I miss my favorite warm jacket that is currently either burned or torn under the rubble.
How does it feel to spend the winter without a cup of hot chocolate? Without your favorite
comfy pjs?
Nothing feels the same.
Even the colors faded in my eyes.
The North is starving, the south is packed with people homeless under endless fire.
When will this end?
I want this to end right now.
I have gray hair in my head now, my face changed.
We are heartbroken.
Do you hear us? Do you see us?
I miss Montaser, Hamza, Rushdi, Abdullah, Mohammed and Nidal.
I do not want to lose more people I love.
This journey is taking too long.
Please do anything to stop this.
Don’t forget us.
Hind ☀️
Hind Khoudary is a Palestinian journalist based in the Gaza Strip who is interested in politics and human rights. She is currently a Al Jazeera correspondent, Outreach and Partnership Coordinator for We Are Not Numbers and a volunteer for Save Youth Future Project and Save Gaza Project.
Hind has sent out a call: I am calling the world and all the countries to airdrop food to Gaza
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